A week after we got back
together, Giovanni and I were at the local Harley shop. He needed a new clutch
cable. Every time we stopped there, he had to look at the bikes. His was almost
twenty years old, and he dreamed of having a new one. Although, he took such
good care of his, you wouldn’t know its age, unless you were a motorcycle
connoisseur.
He sat on a few models
and grinned like a kid. Then we walked over to the accessories section. “Maybe
I should get saddlebags so you don’t have to carry the backpack.” He looked
pensive for a minute. “I’d have to test them first to make sure you can still reach
the pegs.”
I nodded. “You wanna do
that now?”
“Nah, I don’t have the
money this week. Mom needed money for a new prescription.” It didn’t seem to faze
him that he supported his mother more than most young men had to.
After a bit more
browsing, we wound up at the bikes again. He stared at a black Road King for a
long time. The price tag was way out of our price range, but it could be doable
one day. If the album sold well that is.
Giovanni sat on it and
sighed. “I always wanted one of these.”
“Will they let you test
drive it?” I hoped I could tag along.
He shrugged. “Maybe, I
never asked.” He looked up at me. “You planning on going with me?”
“Why wouldn’t I?” I
studied his face, trying to see through his expressionless face. Sometimes I
wished he could express his emotions better. “I rode here with you.”
His eyebrows rose. “This
got more power than any bike I ever had. It’s a 1500. Guess I’m nervous you’ll
fall.” His eyes portrayed fear.
Then I understood. Losing
me had changed him. He was more cautious, yet wanted to hang onto me tighter.
“See if they have one with a sissy bar. That way if you hit the throttle too
hard, I won’t fall.” I had learned a lot about motorcycles being with him.
A small smile formed on
his lips. “So smart, I didn’t think of that.”
We had to wait two hours
for an open test drive slot with the bike he chose. Giovanni fidgeted most of
the time, unable to stay still. When the time was almost up, he squeezed my
hand. “Maybe I can get one of them when the tour’s over.” He smiled. “It’d be a
lot easier on your ass on the way to the studio for our next album.”
I smiled. The long drive
on his bike did sometimes cause an ache, but I had gotten used to it. Although,
when I was bruised, it was torture. “As long as I can still feel the wind,
it’ll be cool.”
“Mr. Saracino?” A voice
called out.
Both of us looked up. Then
Giovanni stood and grabbed our gear, before walking towards the man with a
clipboard several feet away. “That’s me.” He tugged me behind him.
“This way,” clipboard
guy said.
Once outside, Giovanni
let me go and inspected the blue bike that waited for him. It was definitely
bigger than his. The seats were much wider, well padded.
“We don’t allow
passengers on test rides.” The man looked me up and down.
Giovanni folded his arms
over his chest and stood straight, which made him look pretty scary. “She goes.
I’m not leaving her here.”
“What do you ride?”
With a look towards the
parking lot, Giovanni answered, “A ’97 Sportster, 833.”
“That’s kinda small for
a guy your size.” The employee quickly gave Giovanni a once over.
Giovanni glared at him.
“I lifted it and modified it a bit. It’s got forward controls too.”
“You ever road anything
over 1000?”
Giovanni glanced at me
then at the man, “Only in first or second gear. I’m a mechanic.”
“You should drive it in
the parking lot before you take her out on it.”
Nodding, Giovanni
obviously agreed. He visibly relaxed and donned his helmet and gloves. “Stay in
sight, Crystal .”
He pulled me close and pressed his lips to mine, “A couple of minutes.”
“I’ll be right here.” I
watched his smile widen as he mounted the bike.
He started it up and
grinned widely. It was much louder than his. Obviously excited, he revved the
engine. Then he put it in gear and rolled in a circle, getting a feel for it.
He had told me that every bike was different, just like cars. When he had gone
down the length of a long aisle, he accelerated. His face told me he was surprised
by how the bike reacted. By the time he came back to us, he looked relatively
comfortable with it.
“Get on,” he kept the
bike steady waiting for me.
I put my helmet on and
looked at him. “Um, I can’t get my leg up that high.” I pointed to the sissy
bar. I had never ridden on a bike with one.
Giovanni looked behind
him. “Step on the peg then swing your leg over in front of you.” He scooted
forward, giving me more room to maneuver.
Grabbing his shoulder, I
did just that, almost catching my foot on his jeans. I quickly found the second
peg and rested my foot. Then I leaned forward and grabbed Giovanni around the
middle.
“You don’t have to hold
on so tight.” Giovanni leaned back and let our helmets touch. “If you want, you
can sit back.”
I loosened my hold a
bit, but was too nervous to do anything more. “I like holding you.”
He patted my hands. “I
like it too, feels good to have you against my back.”
I felt the bike go into
gear and clutched him tighter. His earlier nervousness was getting to me. When
he took off, going slow, I closed my eyes. Then he rubbed my thigh and I
relaxed. I hadn’t slid back like he had worried. I looked up just as he slowed
to turn onto a main road. Seconds later, he accelerated hard and my body jerked,
but then I felt the backrest behind me. I wasn’t going anywhere.
“Sorry,” he shouted.
I gripped him firmer, to
ease my own nerves. When he was at a steady speed, I took a deep breath and let
my thighs relax. The seat was a lot more comfortable, and I liked have
something behind me. The wind around us made me smile. It was the best part
about riding, feeling free.
At a red light, I yelled
over the loud engine, “You got good taste. I like this one.”
“Cool,” he squeezed my
thigh then held my hand for a few seconds, “Me too.”
The bike slowed when the
river came into view. I knew we had an hour, but I thought we would be riding
the whole time. Without a word, he parked the bike and led me to a large grassy
patch with a great view of the water.
“What’re we doing?” I
asked as he sat on the floor and tugged me to sit between his legs.
He hugged me, so his
chest was against my back. “We can’t talk on the bike.” After taking a deep
breath, his body relaxed. “We been so busy lately.”
His hands ran down over
my thighs then back up, over my ribs. He was cautious what he touched. There
was a family picnicking nearby and people randomly all around us. Slowly his
fingers slipped under my top.
I grabbed his hands.
“Hey.”
“I wanna show you
something.” He lifted my shirt a few inches, exposing only my belly. His lips
brushed over my ear. “I got a nice idea for a tattoo.” He made a circle with
one of his fingers around my belly button, “A bunch of small butterflies all
around here.”
Confused, I leaned my
head back and looked up at him. “Why butterflies?” I did like them an awful
lot, but none of my tattoos were that girlie.
“They’re a symbol of new
life.” His whole body tensed for a few seconds. “Don’t freak out.” He held me
closer and whispered, “When we have a baby, they’ll get bigger as you do.”
I fought the urge to
argue, while my hands balled into fists. “Baby?” No way was I ready yet and he
knew it. Why does he keep pushing for it? “Now?” I squeaked, unable to control
the tone of my voice.
“I didn’t mean we start
trying.” He sighed. “I want you to have the tattoo before we do. Please?” He
rubbed my belly. “I can’t wait till you’re carrying my kid, but I won’t push, promise.”
Closing my eyes, I
reigned in my anxiety, taking deep breaths. His fingers continued to caress my
skin, slowly. I stayed quiet and felt him tense again. That meant he was
getting worried. His hands moved to my shoulders and gently massaged them.
“You OK?” His voice was
barely a whisper. “I’m sorry if I freaked you out again.”
I turned my head and
listened to his heart beat quickly for a few moments. “I don’t know when I’ll
be ready.” My voice wasn’t steady and my hands shook.
“That’s fine.” He
smoothed my hair, trying not to snag my ponytail. “I can wait...” He exhaled in
my hair and kissed the top of my head. “…until you are.” He paused a few
seconds. “I love you.”
I turned and hugged him.
“Love you too.”
He wrapped his arms
around me and kissed my head again. “Just think about it, OK?” When I nodded, he
squeezed me. “It’d look beautiful.” We said nothing for a few minutes more.
Then he tapped my thigh. “We gotta get back.”
I gave him a half smile and
got to my feet. “It does sound like a nice idea,” I admitted.
Giovanni gave me a
questioning look. “What does?”
“The tattoo.”
He stood and put his
hands on my shoulders. “So, you’ll do it?
“Yeah.”
He threw a fist in the
hair. “Yes!” Excitedly, he went on, “Will you do it today? This way you can’t
change your mind.”
I shook my head. “You’re
gonna be relentless if I don’t, right?”
“Yep.” He grinned from
ear to ear. “All day and all night till you do it.”
Sighing, I feigned
defeat. “Well fine then.” I looked up at him and smiled. “I hope it turns out
sexy.”
He pulled me close and
put his hands around my waist. Then he leaned down and whispered, “All your
tattoos’re sexy.” His fingers caressed my lower back, “Especially this one.” He
exhaled on my neck. “First time I saw this, I imagined you bent over Chad ’s kitchen
table. My dick was so hard, I swore you were gonna notice. Then Rosario had to piss me
off, again.”
“You forgot about him
pretty quick.” The night floated through my mind, him in a towel, dancing, his
body against mine, fantasizing, waking up in his arms. “We had a great time
that night.”
He groaned against my
neck. “Yeah. That was the first time I held you all night. I have no idea how I
controlled my dick.” His lips brushed my skin. “God, you felt so fucking good.”
“Better than our first
time?” I was slightly insulted.
He held my face in his
hands and tilted my head up. After placing a passion filled kiss on my lips, he
held my gaze. “No.” His eyes seemed far away for a few seconds then his focus
returned. “That was so incredible; I don’t have words to describe it. I felt it
in my entire body… and when I came… I thought my balls were literally
exploding.” He gently rubbed my nose with his. “It’s ‘cause I love you.”
I nodded, knowing that
was why it was the same for me. “I thought we had to get back.”
“Yeah, we do.” Giovanni
gave me a quick kiss on the lips and tugged me back to the bike.
After returning the Road
King, Giovanni took me
to Manny’s tattoo shop. The place was bigger than I expected. Julian, the guy Chad used, worked out of a small
storefront downtown. Manny’s had couches and chairs in a large waiting area.
The walls were covered in tattoo designs and related artwork. Heavy metal music
was piped into the dimly lit room as well.
We sat on a couch, Giovanni’s arm
around me. “You haven’t gotten a tattoo in a while. Think you’ll be OK?”
“Um…” I hadn’t even thought about
it. “I guess.” As we waited, anxiety started to creep up. “Do any girls work
here?”
He put his other arm around me. “I
don’t think so.” He kissed my hair. “Did you change your mind?”
Before I could reply, I heard
footsteps. A man with a bandage on his arm walked out of the store and another
man appeared. “Hey, Giovanni. What’s up? Finally doing the other leg?”
Giovanni patted my kne and stood. “Nah,
Manny. Don’t know what to put there yet. This time my girl Crystal’s getting a
piece done.” He walked towards the counter.
“Hmmm, girl? That’s a first.” Manny
was a very tall and all around large man. He had a dark crew cut and a full
graying beard. The glare Giovanni gave him caused his eyebrows to go up. “What?
You never brought a chick here before.” Giovanni must have given him another look,
because he grinned and said, “Oh, that chick. I’ll keep my mouth shut.”
I got to my feet and slowly joined
them, but stayed quiet.
“I’m gonna need you to draw something
out for me.” Giovanni draped an am over my shoulders. He used his other hand to
lift my top a little. “A set of butterflies around her belly button.”
Manny cocked his head. “Interesting…”
His lip curled up. “So is it somethin’ like the dragon on your back.” He looked
up at me. “Are you in recov-“
“Shut the fuck up,” Giovanni
suddenly blurted out.
Both Manny and I stared at him. “Dude,
what the fuck?”
I ran a hand down Giovanni’s tense
arm. “What’s the matter?”
“Nothing,” he eyed Manny. “Forget
it, please.”
With a sigh, Manny put his hands on
the counter in front of him. “She don’t know.” He waited for an answer but
didn’t get one. “Giovanni, man, it’s gonna come out.”
Giovanni glared at him again. “Not
now.”
I watched the two men dare the other
to say a word. For a few minutes, I went over the conversation that just
occurred. Was Manny about to say
“recover” or “recovery?” No other words came to mind. Giovanni obviously
was not ready for me to know. I couldn’t help but try to think of reasons for
him to have to recover from something. Had he been sick once? What would a
dragon have to do with that?
“What’s he talking about?” My eyes
opened wide as I waited. When he didn’t respond, my voice rose. “What happened
to you?”
His body was tense and his breathing
was quick. He obviously didn’t want me to know. “I’m sorry,” Giovanni softly said
in my ear. “I just can’t. Not yet.”
He said that a lot when it came to
feelings or his past. Sometimes I wished he could express himself like Chad did. I
always had to drag things out of him. If I pushed him, he would just clam up
and possibly even get angry. I decided to let it go, for both our sakes.
“Sorry.” Manny seemed truly
remorseful. “I didn’t mean to start a fight.”
I took a deep breath. “You didn’t.
It’s fine. He doesn’t like to talk about some things.” I clutched Giovanni’s
hand nervously, when Manny’s eyes met mine. “Can you fit me in?”
“Yep, don’t have an appointment for
an hour.” He waved his hand. “Come on back and we’ll get started.”
Giovanni started to relax as we
strolled down the hallway. He didn’t let go of my hand, and I was glad. Me on
the other hand, my anxiety was building. The last time I had a tattoo done; Chad and I went
to Julian, who I knew well. I had my blouse
off, yet I felt comfortable. That was before my attack though.
Once in a room, I stood as close to
Giovanni as possible. I squeezed his fingers, trying to relax. He lifted my
hand and kissed my fingers.
“It’s OK,” he murmured.
Manny got out a pencil and some
paper. “So are you particular about breeds or colors?”
I looked at my feet. “Not really.”
“I’d say Monarchs’d be nice.” Giovanni
lifted my chin, “Red, blue and black?” When I nodded, he smiled. “Simple’s
better for this one I think.”
We watched Manny sketch. He was real
good. It didn’t take him long to have eight one-inch butterflies in a circle outlined
on the paper. Minutes later, Giovanni led me to the reclining chair.
“How’s this?” Manny held up the
finished drawing.
Giovanni grinned widely. “Perfect.”
“Take off your shirt…” Manny got up
and started getting things ready. “…and lay back on chair.”
I took it off, wishing I had worn a
less revealing bra. After placing it on a nearby table, I covered my chest with
my arms feeling more exposed than I was. Giovanni stood in front of me and
smiled. Then Manny touched my lower back and I jumped.
“I’m just admiring the piece you got
down here.” Manny wolf whistled. “It’s
hot.”
Cringing from his touch, I stepped
towards Giovanni.
“Hey, what’s wrong?”
“She’s afraid of people touching
her,” Giovanni explained. “Just have a little patience, please.” We stood there
for a minute, while I calmed.
I lay back on the chair with
Giovanni’s help. However, when he let go, the thought of Manny’s hands on me
was suddenly terrifying. Keeping my arms up, I started to shake. My hands
clenched into fists and I couldn’t move.
Looking at Giovanni with pleading
eyes and clenched teeth, I whined, “I can’t do this.”
“It’s okay.” He stood over me and tugged
me until I was in his arms. “I’m right here. Manny’s professional.” His fingers
ran through my hair while I clutched the back of his shirt. “Take a deep breath.”
He leaned his cheek against mine. “If you’re scared we can go.”
“She OK?” Manny asked from close by.
Giovanni’s head moved then his lips
touched my ear. “We can do this another day.”
Knowing I had a choice made me feel
much better. I closed my eyes and took several deep breaths. Then I cleared my
mind. “I can do this.” I said it to myself several times, as I stayed still.
“You sure?”
I nodded and met his eyes. “Yeah.”
“Are we doing this?” Manny rolled a
table next to me. He pulled a chair next to mine. “I’ll be careful where I
touch, OK?”
I lay back again. “We are.”
Giovanni picked up my hand. “I’m
right here.”
I closed my eyes and thought about
what the tattoo would look like if I were pregnant. That calmed me a bit more. It
was a really cool idea. “Just don’t
let go.” I squeezed his hand and loosened my muscles.
“You need to open your jeans.” Manny’s
voice was soft.
Giovanni did it for me with one
hand. Then he kissed my lips. “Thanks for doing this. I can’t wait till it grows
with you.” I could hear the smile in his tone.
Manny touched my abdomen and I
jumped again. He waited a few seconds then paper was on my skin. “Maybe you
should open your eyes so you know when I’m gonna touch you.”
I laughed, which broke down my
nerves a bit more. “If I watch, I’ll pass out.”
Giovanni kissed my forehead. “Why
didn’t you tell me you were afraid of needles?”
“I’m not exactly afraid,” I admitted.
“They just make me queasy.”
He brushed a few hairs out of my
face. “Then keep ‘em closed.”
Minutes later, I winced and grit my
teeth. I slowly reached up and Giovanni held both of my hands. Instead of
squirming like I wanted to, I gripped his hands tighter. It wasn’t quite as bad
the one on my lower back, but hurt none the less. Thankfully, by the time he
was coloring in the butterflies, my belly was numb.
“So, you like?”
I cautiously opened my eyes. Manny
was cleaning up. I glanced down my body. From what I could see, he did a really
nice job. The colors were bright and the lines were perfect.
“Damn, that really turns me on.”
Giovanni caressed the skin just above the tattoo.
I grinned slyly. “The wind could
turn you on lately.”
“True.” He leaned down. “But, now I
got something to look at whether you’re on your back or your stomach.” His
voice got deeper. “When we get home, you are so in trouble.”
Manny came back to me and rubbed
ointment on my belly, while I fought the urge to hop off the chair. “Keep the
bandage on for an hour.” He covered my new ink with a large gauze pad. “Get
dressed and I’ll give you some paperwork.”
When we got home, I carefully took
off the bandage and took a shower. My belly was sore, but it was most
definitely worth it. When I had looked in the mirror, I was shocked at how
detailed the butterflies were.
Giovanni waited for me in the
bedroom. He waved his hand at the bed when I entered the room. “Lay down so I
can put this on.”
He had a tube of ointment in his
hand. It was something we always had on hand. I complied and tossed the towel
aside. He just gave me a lustful look.
“Scoot down here so it’s easier.” He
watched me slide towards him, licking his lips. “God, that looks even better
than I expected.” When my ass hit the edge, he grabbed my knees and spread them
wide. “Close your eyes.”
I did and was surprised to hear him
walk away. Then I realized he didn’t have a washcloth or anything to clean his
hands after. When I heard footsteps, I called out. “Can I put my legs down?”
“Not yet.” A hand ran down each of
my thighs, “So fucking hot.” He dragged his tongue over my hip then down.
I moaned as he caressed my folds
slowly. “What happened to taking care of me?”
“This ain’t taking care of you?” He
went right back to using his tongue to make me crazy.
My hips lifted when he teased my
clit, trying to make him suck on it. As usual, he didn’t let me control things.
He pushed my hips down and held my legs wide open. His tongue tentatively
stroked me, with teasing glimpses of pleasure.
I squirmed. “Please.”
He chuckled and pressed the tip of
his tongue to my entrance. Again, he moved before giving me what I wanted. “You
need to learn patience.”
“No. You need to learn to stop
teasing.”
He laughed again. “Don’t like
teasing? Fine.”
Suddenly he filled my pussy with his
long, thick erection. “Oh God!” My hips involuntarily ground into his, while my
entire body vibrated with pleasure. He gave me another quick stroke and I cried
out, “Giovanni, fucking God!”
“I guess you like this better.” He
grunted as he slammed his hips into mine again, still holding my legs open, eyes
fixed on my new ink. “That tattoo’s better than all the other ones.” He leaned
down slightly, careful not to touch the sensitive skin. “’Cause you got it for
me.”
My back arched and I gripped the
blanket beneath me. “So glad I got it. Fuck!” His rhythm became fast and
steady. Shocked by how he ravaged my body, my eyes rolled back. “How’re you
doing this?” His cock was hitting my sweet spot over and over again. It was
overwhelming. I cried out yet again, just as he went faster.
“So good, damn,” Giovanni groaned
loudly. “God, I’m gonna cum already.” He growled and dug his fingers into my
thighs, while he looked up. “Fuck!” His hips stilled.
My insides were still quivering as
his cock throbbed within me. I didn’t move until he pulled out. “Guess you like
the tattoo.”
“Just a bit,” he winked at me. “I’ll
be right back.” Within seconds, he was back, pants closed and a washcloth in
his hand. “Tell me if I hurt you.”
I cringed at the first sweep of his
fingers, but it didn’t hurt like I expected. It was just sore. He was rarely
gentle with me, but his touch was almost feather-like. My entire body relaxed.
“Chad ’s gonna love this,” Giovanni
said barely above a whisper.
My eyes flipped open in surprise. He
rarely talked about Chad
since he heard the song Chad
wrote about me. His smile told me he wasn’t the least bit jealous.
“What?” He gave me a puzzled look.
I quickly changed my expression,
“Nothing.” It was best left alone. After he had carefully covered my belly with
plastic wrap, I got to my feet. “It might have been a good idea to wash up
before you did that.” I was sure I smelled of sex.
“Why?” His arms wrapped around me
from behind. “I used a condom. You should be fine.” He just didn’t understand.
I sighed and leaned back on him.
“I’ll be careful.” I pulled away and started for the doorway.
“Wait.” He gently yanked me back and
pressed his hips to my ass. His cock was growing again. “I just keep seeing it
in my head. You’ll even more beautiful with a huge belly with my baby in it.
Why does that turn me on?” He let out a low growl. “Maybe I’m just crazy.”
I couldn’t imagine having a child at
twenty-three, but stayed silent. He was too excited by the idea. Bursting his
bubble at that moment felt wrong.
“Love you,” he whispered. “I better
stop.” He let me go. “We gotta leave soon.” After a kiss on my lips, he caressed
my cheek. “Thanks again for getting the tattoo, my love.”
I smiled. “I’d do anything for you.”
After washing up best I could, I started to get dressed.
When Giovanni walked into
the extra bedroom, his eyes opened wide. “If you keep dressing like that every
night, we are never gonna be on time.”
“I’m not even dressed
yet.”
“I know.” He came closer
and gazed at the red bra and panty set I wore, practically drooling. “I’ve
never seen this one before.” Then he picked me up and tossed me on the bed.
“We don’t have time for
this, Giovanni. We’re late,” I warned him as I tried to get off the bed.
He quickly stood over me
and pressed his lips to mine. “We’ll make time.” He pushed me back down and
straddled my hips. “Come on. You look so hot.”
“I just cleaned up, please.”
I pled with my eyes.
With a loud exhale, he
climbed off the bed. “Fine, but when we get home, I’m fucking you in that
set." He left me and seconds later, I heard the bathroom door close.
When I was dressed, I fiddled with
my tank top, trying to keep the plastic underneath. It was there so my clothes weren’t
stained. I quickly gave up and changed into a longer top. It was red, with
spaghetti straps and a low neckline. It went well with the black ruffled skirt
around my hips.
“Hot damn!” Giovanni came out of the
bedroom, smiling while tying his hair back. “I like that shirt.” He crossed the
living room to me. “Why’re you torturing me?” He put his hands on my shoulders.
“Maybe they’ll have a back room.” He winked just before gritting his teeth.
An hour later, I threw my guitar
strap over my head. Then I almost cried when my bass smacked my belly. I had
forgotten about the tattoo. Quickly I turned to the wall and hid the pain.
“Here.” Mark handed me my cable.
I plugged in my guitar. Chad
saying we needed to switch to wireless came to mind. He was right, but it was a
costly investment. We had to save up for it. Between rent and necessities,
there wasn’t much left out of what we made as a band. If Chad and
Giovanni weren’t working, there probably wouldn’t be anything at all. Chad had
offered to pay for it, but everyone else refused. It had to be a group effort,
just like all the band’s purchases.
We soon started “Trapped in the
Middle.” It had become popular. The audience loved that Chris moved all over
the stage as he sang it. Sometimes I wondered if he was inside my head with the
way he sang it. He expressed all the emotions I felt as I wrote it.
As soon as it was over, I
accidentally brushed my tattoo with my bass again. My eyes closed and my hands
balled in to fists.
“Hey, you OK?” Chad lightly
touched my arm. I took a deep breath and tilted my head so I could see him. He
looked down at me with concern. “Looks like you’re in pain.”
I smiled, wide. “I’m OK. No big
deal.”
“He didn’t…” His voice trailed off
while he pursed his lips. “Sorry. I know I promised.” He sighed, obviously
hating butting out of my sex life. “It’s not that though, right?”
Shaking my head, I held his forearm.
“I swear it’s something else, nothing to worry about.”
Several more songs later, Chad walked
with me towards the back room. “What’s wrong, baby?” He stopped and made me
look at him. “You can tell me. I promise not to get mad.”
“I’m fine, really.” I suddenly
grabbed Chad ,
feeling woozy. Pain sometimes made me dizzy and I was feeling seriously sore.
“Baby, you gotta lie down.” He held
me up as best as he could without hugging me. “You look like you’re gonna pass
out.”
Giovanni was coming towards us with
a bass drum. “What happened?”
“I’m fine,” I insisted.
“Sure,” Giovanni gave us a forced
smile, showing me it was killing him to let Chad care for me.
While everyone else loaded the vans,
Chad
helped me onto the front seat in Giovanni’s. He quickly kissed my cheek and sat
on the van floor, urging me to lie down. Once I was on my back, he rested his
hand over my belly and I left out a soft cry.
“How’d I hurt you?” He lifted my top
and stared at my belly. “Wow, this’s beautiful.” He smiled at me and a finger
grazed my skin around the tattoo. “That’s why you’re in pain.”
I smiled back at him. “Yeah.”
“You like it huh?” Giovanni came
into view.
“When we have a baby, the butterflies
grow with her belly,” Giovanni explained.
Immediately, Chad looked at
me with his mouth open and heartbreak in his eyes. He knew that meant I was
thinking of a future with Giovanni. He gently caressed my belly.
As soon as Giovanni was gone, Chad
got to his knees and pulled me into his arms. Tears falling on my neck, he
whispered, “I wanted to have kids with you. I love you so much, my baby girl.”
“I’m sorry.” I started to cry also,
his pain overwhelming me like it so often did.
“You won’t have to, I swear.”
He eased my body back until I was
lying down again. Then he kept a hand on my belly as sleep came over me. I had
no idea I was so tired.
I woke up to my body being moved. “Sorry.”
I looked into Giovanni’s eyes as he put my seatbelt on. Then he whispered, “I
wanna spent the rest of my life with you.”